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人生如戏，戏如人生。

2011-05-03T16:12:00.002+08:00

最近常常在感慨。
音乐的魔力真是太可怕了。
让我掉进了我自己的内心深处。
在那里，我迷路了，迷惘了。

人说，“人生如戏，戏如人生”。
戏里唯美奢华的生活，什么时候才能成为我的人生？
最近是看太多戏，
总觉得，我的生活。。
好平淡，好平淡。
虽然，无可否认地，我是活在幸福里。
很平淡的幸福。

再看看，身边的人。
大家怎么都过得很忙碌？
虽然忙碌，可是他们的人生是精彩的。
是色彩缤纷，是生动的。

其实我并不是在表示不满，
我最近常觉得，
我实在是太太太闲了。
好怀念以前还是学子的生活。

好想过更充实的生活。
嗯～加油吧，孩子。 ^_^

6月，我期待你的来临。 :D

i dont know how to say

2011-03-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

It's been so long!
And, I went to a few places for holidays.
ShangHai, Macau, Hatyai...
Oh well,
It's all good experience.
I dont really want to blog about it,
cause it will be too long. and im lazy. =x

Its 6th of March today,
My baby is now 1 years, n 3 days old. xD
He's grown a lot.

I remember the moment,
in the operation theatre,
I was still 50% conscious,
and the time I heard a voice of a baby crying loudly,
my tears couldn't stop rolling down.
That's my baby checking in to this world.
Awww, stop thinking. Imma start crying soon. :')

And now he's became a really naughty boy. Lol.
mischievous yet deadly adorable.
his gonna grow up to be a handsome boy, and kao sei lui.
and mayb bring back a girl fren or two,
so the hamsap daddy can scan through. LOL.
of course i won't let it happen la.

有时候
感觉好像很多东西要抒发出来
可是时机很不对
当我真正坐在电脑面前
又变得很词穷
到底我想写的是什么？
我也忘了。

可是我还记得
昨晚那一段对话。
临睡前，你让我陪你说话
俩人面对面躺着
我问了你，
结婚了。。。有没有什么感想？
你说，
没什么，不就这么回事儿。
我又问你，
你，还像以前那么爱我吗？
你闭了闭眼，
不就是这样嘛。。。没什么分别的呀。
我看着你，摸着你的头发，
你难道就不会觉得闷？这么多年了，你都只是对着我而已。
你笑了笑，很用力的把我抱紧。
那不如我们各自出去找别人玩一玩？你让我吗？
我捶了捶你，
不好笑，不好玩。我总觉得……不大踏实。
你又笑了笑，
有什么不踏实？你难道自己心里都感受不到？我其实真的很爱你的。要不然我不会那么紧张你，再不然我也不会那么纵容你。我嘴上是很坏，可是，我就是嘴坏，你知道的。我有时候脾气是大一点，可是你自己有时候也很野蛮啊。我都没让你把你的野蛮戒掉。你就别想太多了。

听到这些，我豁然开朗。
心里的那一分悸动，眼眶里浮出的泪水。
不能否认，我……是很幸运的一个小女人。
虽然我老公不帅，可是他是在用心的疼着我这个小女人。
把我的野蛮，我的任性，我统统的缺点都一口咽了，
我，还埋怨什么？
老公，我什么都不求，
只希望“执子之手，与子偕老”。
也希望我们的孩子能够健康无忧，快乐的长大就好了。
今后也要麻烦你，多多包容我这个被宠坏了的小女人。 =D

GONG XI GONG XI!

2011-02-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

It's the sixth day of CNY.
And it's been so long since the last post.
oops.
I've already been to ShangHai.
and erm......
I'm nt gonna write about it la. lols
lazy jor. =X

Went to dinner in Extra Super Tanker Restaurant in Kota Damansara jus now,
to celebrate the birthday of my F-I-L.

And, I'm also happy to say that,
tonite is the last nite baby is staying with me.
"hallelujah" borrow a while, lol i'm not Christian.
"throwing" him back to my aunt's place on the morning.
And and, I'm going to Macau / Hong Kong this Friday.
Wheee~

My CNY this year was soso.
Hmm I thought I could've eat as much of the snacks I want this year,
Cause last year was so kelian I couldn't touch anything.
BUT STILL! I ATE NOTHING! @(!*&*@$&^
fine, dong gam fei lor. D:

Alright I want to sleep jor.
Update again soon.
Ciaos. <3

Back xD

2011-01-10T02:40:00.002+08:00

Back from HatYai!
HatYai is a great place, if u love to eat Thai food.
shopping experience was..... SUPER-DUPER GREAT,
which makes HatYai a real great place for me. xD

Well, everybody knows I love to shop online.
Clothes selling in HatYai,
are all those clothes, you can find online.
AND! half or even half-half the price online.
But kinda dissapointed, they don't sell nice shoes.
Even it looks nice, but it isn't nice to wear at all.
Very low quality of the shoes. :( mehhhhh...

Now I finally know why my hubby loves to go thr.
He loves it for food,
I love it for shop. HAHA

All right end of the post.
Our transportation was reli bad. ._.
my ass is pain now. nid to go rest.

It's 2011

2011-01-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

2011年了！
祝大家新年快乐，万事如意，身体健康，步步高升！

在倒数的那几分钟，突然好怀念以前可以出去跟一大群人一起狂欢的感觉。
那一刹那，大家兴奋的欢呼。
那热烈的气氛，让人很有一种融入参与全世界的感觉。

2011年的新希望呢。
emm。。
我的小心肝。。
祝你快高长大，健康快乐。
妈妈爱你哦。

爸爸妈妈，
希望你们能够在新的一年里，
健健康康，事事顺利。
我爱你们，还有弟弟妹妹。
健康快乐，学业进步。

也祝福我夫家里的每一位亲人。
大家都能够身体健康，万事如意。

最后的最后，除了小心肝以外，
我生命里最最重要的人。
老公，新的一年又到了～
让我们再携手共同度过一切未知的一年。
也希望我们的感情会在这一年里更上一层楼。
老公，我爱你哦。
让我们在记录里又在划上一笔吧。 xD
i love you. mmmmmuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaccccccckkkkkkkkkkkssssssss...

嘿嘿，不好意思。肉麻了一点。
在此也祝福各位有在读，没在读的朋友们。
祝大家新年快乐，事事顺利！

love,
aijia

Life.

2010-12-23T21:44:00.001+08:00

What's life without some ups and of course the downs. :/
fought big on winter solstice night with the hub.
Still kinda angry rite now.
but yeaaa...
what kind of a couple don't fight? hmmm.
But I swear, it wouldn't be that easy anymore the next time.
cause you know,
I'm a fucking evil bitch, I can get as crazy as I want. be very careful dear.

I LOVE　YOU．　(meanmeanlaugh)

muacks. ♥

Baby....

2010-12-19T00:17:00.002+08:00

Being a mommy is undeniable, tough.
I don't really have the right to say this.
Well, for baby's first month i didn't really take care of him myself.
On the 2nd month right till 4th month,
I was on my own, and 2 months passed by just as quickly.
And I put my baby in the care of my aunt.
I only bring him back every weekends.
So I was really doing an easy job. :p

But...
As a parent,
I won't possibly be feeding him, putting him to sleep only.
I need to educate him.
And this is IMPORTANT.
Feeding him good education on his first few starting years,
Defines him.
Characteristics, personalities, his interests and much more.

And I realise,
how great was my daddy and mommy.
At least I'm not a fucking retard or some bad tempered bitch(ahemahemIambadtemperedsometimesforgivemelol).
I do think about this sometimes,
(i wonder if the daddy does this)
How shall I speak to my son?
Does this kind of things come to a person naturally?
Of how to be a parent?
Well, seeing I am a young parent and maybe me myself isn't very mature.
So, shall i become my son's friend?
But how?
I always pictured scenes in my head,
when one day, my son learns to run around and causing mischief.
shall I scold him like how some parents do?
Or shall I do it some way, explaining to him this is not right.
:S

You know baby,
Mommy hope that you grow up into one fine little man.
With good manners,
Sharing with mommy your little secrets,
Making many small friends,
Maybe one cute little girlfriend or two,
A young little man, that mommy will be so proud of you. :)
Mommy promise,
Mommy will always listen to what you have to say,
And you too, have to listen to what mommy says.
Mommy will try my best to be your best friend forever.

You should understand,
your daddy(baba) is trying hard to act like a MAN.
but baby, don't misunderstand.
Daddy is not being harsh.
He just don't know how.
Forgive daddy alrite?
daddy is a newbie. xD
Let's just show him how,
and you be friends with him too.
Because, daddy loves you just like mommy does.
You'll know when you grow up and become a daddy yourself. :)

Baby,
Mommy wants you to grow up strong,
And live a happy and healthy life.
Baby,
Mommy loves you.
Mommy will always be there for you,
For whole of mommy's life.

习惯？依赖？

2010-12-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

结婚已经一年另两个月了。
实际上，从感觉方面来说。
我们只不过是从2天见一次面的关系，
转换到同住一个屋檐底下的关系。
这么简单而已。
结婚不结婚，真的，完全不是一回事。
那只是一张将我们合法化的纸。

我有时会想，为什么？
1天里，如果我们任何一个都没有外出的话，
1天24小时的每一分钟都溺在一起。
没有哪一个会有“怎么每天都是你”的念头。
好怪哦。。。
会不会就是一种习惯了？
反正也没什么不好，
虽然是没以前小情人般的甜言蜜语，
但是老公偶尔流露出的疼惜，包容，宠溺（哪怕就是那么一丁点）
我还是感受得到的。
甚至比以前恋爱时的甜还更甜。 xD

所以呢。。。
老公我知道你还是爱我滴，
老婆也是一样爱你。
（爱铭铭多一点，哇咔咔）
<3

小红灯

2010-12-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

我即将要写的这些东西，真的是发自内心，很想要跟大家分享的很重要的事情。
就是女生啊，以后坐月子的时候，
真的要抓紧时机，大补特补。
把以前不好的身体趁此黄金时期调理过来。
真的！很重要！

就比如说我自己的例子。
近几个月啊，就是生了小孩过后。
身体上，真的。。。有在衰退。
觉得自己好像变老了还是什么的。
尤其是脑子，好像都不大灵光。

我虽然坐月子的时候大家都说我有补到。
说我气色好什么的，可是最了解的还是自己。
那一个月间，我其实还可以吃更多进补的东西。
（可是真的很难吃，而且每天吃真的好可怕）

虽然有时候是有点假装说“哎哟，身体不舒服。头好晕。”之类的。
但这些话不是空穴来风。
是真的有这种感觉才会有这样的话说的出来啊。
有时候是真的严重头晕哦，走路都软绵绵的那种。
然后还要靠壁，不然会整个人倒下去的感觉。
有时就是只能坐着，站起来走几步路都会晕到不行。
也或许是因为我前三个月装了IUCD在体内，是一种避孕器。
这种避孕器呢，就是会使到大部分女性的月经来量增加很多。
而我本身就是有些许贫血。再加每个月这么大出血身体真的受不了吧。
我真的有一点后悔为什么要装那个。 -.-
真的很痛苦！
月经来量大大增加，然后来的时候还会比以前都痛苦！
我应该选避孕药啊！
现在的避孕药超好的，副作用少。
找到适合自己的避孕药，别说副作用，好处还多着呢！
好懊恼哦，为什么我都不做多点research！
还一心想到像我这种粗神经的人一定会忘记吃。 -.-
唉，算了。花了一笔钱那么辛苦装进去，才不要又跑去拿出来。

还有就是，我的脑部操作方面呢。 -.-
差了很多！
我甚至真的记不起来，我以前在中学的那些欢乐时光。
真的，看着照片我都觉得好陌生，完全没回忆。
去当兵的那段回忆也已经被我的大脑自动permanently deleted了。
我已经完全认不出以前跟我同营的人。除了少数那几个。
而且现在的我很多时候都会在那边放空。
整个人是空洞的，不知道自己想什么，要干什么。
难道这就是大家都说的，母亲怀宝宝时会把自己身上所有最好的东西都传送到宝宝那里。
（包括脑力？）

还有啊，（这是刚刚几分钟前发生的）
夸张到，本来扑躺在床上好好的。
就起来上厕所，也就那几步路嘛。
结果我走走走，走到厕所的门口越走就越抓不住平衡，
双脚和意志力都不听指唤，整个人就是往右边倒。
还好双手还可以抓着门框，然后靠着旁边的柜子，
脚就是完全使不出力，一点一点软倒，坐在地上那个角落。
然后就又在那边发呆，放空。完全都没有一点力站起来。
还要老公过来把我整个人抱起来我才能够顺利上厕所。
（感觉上我好像在讲中邪的经历）

所以各位朋友女士小姐们，
千万要记住，管他好吃不好吃，恶心不恶心，饱还是不饱。
吃了再说！我指的是进补的东西，不是乱吃。
补到他够够力的！
不然就真的会很惨！

我就真的惨了。
要等到生下一个贝比，是要等4-5年吗？
那我会不会就剩一具干尸了啊？==
然后怀她10个月，还要再把身上东西都给她。
不就所剩无几了吗？
那一个月之内把这些东西都补回来，可能吗？

不要自己吓自己了。。
睡觉去吧。 -.-
bye~

terrible night.

2010-12-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

I woke up yesterday and i keep scratching my leg,
There was a bum so i thought it was just another mosquito bite as usual.
=.=
I get bitten by mosquito at least 8times a day, so... yea. ._.

and to my surprise,
it wasn't mosquito.
My allergy skin,
has come up with a few lumps of red bum,
which looks really like mosquito bite,
but it will spread throughout that part of my body.
Erm, what they call in chinese "feng mok".
It was super itchy yes,
so I scratch them whenever i feel very itchy, tak boleh tahan.
Was really boiling my mind about WHAT DID I ACTUALLY ATE THAT IT CAME OUT AGAIN? -.-
And, I wasn't able to find an answer.

From my experience,
(I have this trouble since i was a kid)
It wouldn't really last tht long,
A little while in the afternoon it should be gone.
So I didn't do anything to it.
And yes, it did fade away.

But the nightmare begun,
just about midnite,
was resting and watching PPS about some gameshow.
My body starts to react by its own again.
My back was super itchy,
and after scratching for some time,
I knew something was wrong.
I asked hubby to check out what's wrong with my back.
And he said,
"eww, it just looks like your leg this morning."
I'm like “huh?!"
But thn i told myself,
It would be gone when I sleep.
I din't do anything and continue watching the show.

But the red big dots started spreading all over my body,
I'm like an effing baboon keep scratching and complaining to the hub.
I finally tried to sleep at 3am,
But I think the time I really sleep is only on 4am,
And thn itch woke me up from sleeping,
I could hear the muslim prayers, so it should be 5-6am.
And after a while I feel into slumber again.
But not for long,
I woke up and could clearly hear my neighbor going out to work,
She goes out around 7am.
I am not sure Whether was I woke up by the noise she always does whn she go out to work,
Or my body is bothering me.
Then this time I couldn't fall asleep that easy anymore,
Cause I could clearly hear my skin crying how itchy they are,
It really drives me crazy.
I was like a fish, turning and tossing on the bed.
I guess hub din really sleep well too. Oops sorry.
Turn and toss till I was so tired，
I don't rmb wad time i slept again,
until a phone call from the sis-in-law.
we were suppose to go out to a warehouse sale for baby clothes tgt,
But i really couldn't stand, So we ffk'ed her.

11.30am, my father-in-law came,
to harvest the rambutans behind my house. -.-
I wanted to sleep somemore,
I glimpsed on my leg and I was like
O________________________O
I need to go to a doctor.
Changed and drove myself to the clinic,
with already a few ppl waiting to see the doctor.
Luckily it wasn't long.

Went into the doctors room,
He asked "what's wrong, lady?"
I sat and rolled up my long pants,
He was like O__________________________O
"what did you eat to make urself this bad lady?"
I told him i had this problem since young,
And I'd never touched those seafood tht I'm allergic to,
AND THE MAIN POINT, MY BRAIN BURST AND I STILL COULDN'T THINK OF WHAT ON EARTH DID I TOUCHED THAT MADE ME LIKE THAT.
The doctor said,
"ok.. but for allergy, there isn't an effective medicine to heal it. And seeing your situation, I could give you those caramel(thats what they call but im not sure wheher it is this caramel) to apply on the skin to help reduce the itchiness, But i wonder will it be enough for you. Haha.."
It wasn't funny ok, u try and see. you couldn't sleep whole night and your very own skin is killng you. -.-
And I came to you because that bottle of chemical IS JUST WHAT I CAME FOR!
I say, "yes, I want that please. and erm most possible I need some medicine to kill the itch."
He said, "Yes, I will give u the med, You want me to give u a jab? that's really fast and effective."
Seeing as my situation, that was the best solution but...
INJECTION is what i scared most. T_T
Anyway, I agreed to it.

And yea, my arm was so numb the whole day today. T_T
GOOD NEWS IS!
Stupid allergy fade away jor. YAY HOORAY~
I think i shouldn't get so happy first．
Ｓｈｏｏ　ｓｈｏｏ　ａｌｌｅｒｇｙ．
ｐｌｓ　ｄｏｎｔ　ｂｏｔｈｅｒ　ｍｅ　ｅｖｅｒ　ａｇａｉｎ．　T_T

2010-11-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

I am really poor in organizing.
You leave me with a messy room,
and after cleaning it,
and I feel comfortable enough and neat enough,
others will still think it's kinda messy.
=_______________=

I just love the cozy warm feel,
TOO neat.. and I will feel uneased.
I don't know why, maybe i grew up like that.
I love to feel surrounded,
Not the spacious feeling. -.-

I'm sorry i couldn't be a more efficient home cleaner. -.-
Feel frustrated sometimes,
When I thought finally it's kinda neat,
People step in and say,
Hey it's kinda messy.
like WAD THE FARK?
I JUST CLEANED IT. zzz

GRRRR, ok wadeva.
Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＣＡＲＥ　ＯＫ．．　
:)

Feeling old.

2010-11-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

Feeling old.
But I love it. :)

Life has changed a lot lately.
Feel love all around.
Enjoying the life now.
Only that I need to reduce a bit on the weight.
I'm effing fat I EFFING KNOW.

To my man,
I love you now, forever, and always. :)
A simple sentence to tell, but the love is deeper than the ocean.

To my baby,
I'm so glad I'm blessed with you.
Please grow up healthy and stay as happy as an angel always. :)

To one of my friend,
Stay strong my friend.
Everyone is destined to meet her true love.
Just never do anything that you will regret one day in future.
Be careful ok? :)

Well there's actually much to write.
Everytime I feel like blogging, I have loads of ideas.
But when I really sit in front of the monitor,
My mind becomes blank. x.x

I'll try to blog right when the idea comes next time. xD
Cause I got my dream phone. Wahahahaha.
So it's easier to access to the internet anywhere around next time.

So, until next time
ciaos

xxx

2010-09-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

Life is a Bitch.
Imma fuck it.

no idea

2010-08-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

Blog has been left in a corner for so long. =/

A lot of things to do lately.
Hmmm, Not much to say actually lol.
ermmmmm...
hmmmmmmmm...

nothing to say.
Bye. :)

One Step Ahead

2010-07-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

This morning I was scratching my head infront of my wardrobe to wear,
due to getting bored of the clothes I can currently wear,
Yes, due to my body ~~large~~ size,
I only have limited clothes be able to put on my body.
And so, out of nowhere, I took my old time denim mini skirt out.
And to my surprise, I managed to slip it on to my body.
like "MY GOD! AIN'T THIS A MIRACLE! WHAT THE FUCK?"

LOL!
well, my hub just saw wad i wrote, he say i fatt hao..
like "fuck you, I manage to wear my old time skirt, fuck off."
xDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxD

that's all for the post today. :D :D :D

My Boy's Growing Up. :)

2010-07-10T18:44:00.002+08:00

My Boy has been taking his solid foods. :D
Feeding him is actually quite fun (for his age now, 2 mths later its gonna be HEADACHE).
He is like a little birdy, opening his mouth wide open whenever he sees his spoon reaching him.
So Cute! my god.. (it's bcos he has my genes, wahahahahhaha)
And those baby foods are really so tasty, I curi curi take a few small sips when I feed him. =X
When it comes to eating, he always seem so happy, laughing all the way.
So "wai sik", links to the father.
and it makes me worry, I don't want my boy to take the "shape" of his father when he grow up. -.-
Oh, and another big news of him is...
He can turn himself and land on his little tummy rite now.
But he get all so grumpy after that cause he cudn't get himself back on his back. xD
Ain't he the cutest angel on earth. :)
He's just getting cuter and cuter, and naughtier on the other side.
"gu ling jing guai" punya fella.

Getting him to sleep is like battling him on a wrestling tournament. -.-
He "lau gei" so terribly whenever he's sleepy, but he doesnt just sleep away like that.
He will make grumpy noises, and twist and turn himself in my arms,
which makes me look like carrying a real huge fish.
It needs good skill for that, the daddy doesn't possess this skill. -.-
So I need to battle him to sleep every time. -.-
which is really tiresome and flaming up sometimes. ._.

Ok, gotta go. Need to clean the litle birdy.
:D

effing pissed

2010-07-10T02:14:00.002+08:00

i think it's just infinity zero for you and me.
Things are never gonna work for you and me.

Words from the heart,
"I fucking hate you.
Fuck off from me."

被遗弃的小孩

2010-07-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

被遗弃了的部落格～～
我发觉……我真的好堕落！！！
自甘堕落，好学不学，去学老公！
每天跟他同流合污，被他引诱吃东西。 =_="
天啊……
有没有一个人可以每天在我耳边踩我？！
狠狠的踩我，把我踩扁一点，不需要把我当人看的踩我。 =.=
好让我真的可以真正真正的痛改前非，好好的减肥……
我要“出淤泥而不染”。哈哈。

而且，我真的不想再吃外面的食物了。
我决定，自己煮！
每天狂吃我爱吃的——蔬菜，水果！
少油，少盐，少糖的健康食物。
唉……
铭铭他妈……好好加油吧！

还有还有，
我要存钱，我要报名一直以来很想学的：日语desu ne!
Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!
嘿嘿……*眼睛闪闪发光的说，期待-ing*
eheh，我不是日本风靡全球的行业里的那些女明星们厚。
我是真的很喜欢很喜欢日语啦。嘿嘿。

在姐妹之中，下一个的生日就是我了，虽然还有2个月啦。
但是，我该怎么庆祝呢？伤脑筋呢。hmmmm
不过不过，暗示了（应该是明"wat"）老公我要吉他一把。ngek ngek
为什么？就是很想玩一下，就算便宜便宜一百块有得找的都可以啦。
*有这么便宜的吗？* +_+"

目前，没什么大事。
唯一的就是，我最近洗钱太凶了。=p

是将咯……88～～～～

疲れる

2010-06-16T17:30:00.002+08:00

Tsukareta!!
Tired of frustration, hatred, anger, helpless..
Feel like making a big boom. -.-
Everything just came, one after another, flooding me..

And yea, can I care for nothing and do something to really release these once and for all.
-.-
tired of everyday being mad like a bitch..
Just ONCE, let me BOOM it.
I'll be fine..
I have a target or two actually.
*evilideasbrewingwithin*
ngek ngek ngek ngek >=]

shall see....
stay tuned muahahahahahha *evillaughterfromhell*

梦想

2010-06-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

自助旅行，
感觉很象Part time的流浪。
我很喜欢那种感觉。
也很羡慕那些这么做的人。
那象征着完全的自由，
零烦恼的生活！

而我最想，最希望，最渴望去的国家就是日本。
日本的语言，文化，地方，所有的一切，
深深的吸引着我。

去那里亲身体验当地的文化，生活。
边旅游边学习，
无牵无挂，自由自在。
啊…理想的境界。
当然希望一生中最重要的人，
跟着我，陪我实践梦想。
而当然，做为回报，
我也会陪着他去他想要去的地方，
做他想要做的事情。
还有什么比携手共老，
用尽一生一起实现梦想来得更浪漫。
我爱你。<3

加油吧，
给自己三十年的时间，
一步步的往自己的梦想前进。
诚心祝，
梦想成真。
大家都能拥有真挚的爱。

刀山油锅里

2010-06-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

我宁愿一死了之，
这样的痛苦，比开刀还难忍！
他妈的，我要被逼疯了！
真的很想对着墙壁狠狠我的敲下去，
或者放声狂叫。

还有就是，
你醒醒啦！
不醒醒就去死一死啦！
那么没脑没主见，还生公主病，又没公主样。
唉，真是他妈的悲哀咧！
啧啧啧……

我知道，我真是个“必耻”。
但是真的越看越不顺眼！
在好好人皮囊之下隐藏了好久的“必耻”真面目是应该出来透透气了。
最近到处受气，真觉得自己快成为一只被拔了爪牙的野兽。
现在该装回去拿出来秀一下！
哈哈哈哈哈哈！
Ok,发狂完毕，谢谢！

bad reception

2010-05-30T15:36:00.002+08:00

Something went wrong.
Don't know which, or maybe both.
It's kinda hard to communicate.
And there were times that I think stuffs are better to be kept to myself.
It has never been like this.
Something is missing.
I want it fixed.

I feel so bad deep inside me.
I guess same goes to that side.
Maybe it's time to spend some time to fix this.
Maybe it got a little rusty,
some lubricator could do the trick.
I feel so sorry and regret to have said harsh words and acting strong, when all I need is a warm and gentle hug.
Where is that purring meow in me?
Eaten by a roaring lioness?

I need to release my stress somewhere else, and not on you anymore.
My words, they hurt you and me together.
Double the pain in me compared to yours.
Don't worry, I'll return you your purring meow very soon.

anticipation

2010-05-25T18:56:00.002+08:00

2 more days...
baby is gonna go to my aunt's house.
hmmm, happy and saddening at the same time.

happy.. Cos, I'm finally free to have my own time,
to do things I wanna do.
sad.. Cos I'm so gonna miss my little angel.
Miss the times I'm 24-7 with him.

But no worries..
I'm still gonna spend my time with him every weekend.

大同小异

2010-05-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

哈哈。
看着某个综艺节目，
原来大家婚后生活，
都是一样的！哈哈哈！
只是觉得很有趣啦。。。
其实，如果对象找对了，
结婚应该是很好玩的一个游戏。
而且是玩一辈子很好玩的游戏。<3
执子之手，与子偕老。
大概就这意思吧。哈哈！

我亲爱的老公，
就让我们携手玩这个游戏玩到我俩都白发斑斑吧！
Muacks, I love you.. I really do. :D

深切的体会

2010-05-19T23:10:00.003+08:00

终于了解发愁时为何特别的渴望酒精。
睡不着的晚上，来点酒，真的，爽！很帮助睡眠。
但不行过量。

最近烦恼有点无处发泄。
不太敢跟自己的枕边人说，怕会使得他跟我一起烦恼。 >_<

hmmmm,
总之这个世界。。。
真的，不太见单。 :)
笑笑的面对吧！
一切会更美好！
耶！ V(^_^)

too much

2010-05-11T00:39:00.004+08:00

do not read this.
Just need to write this down to make myself feel better.

Am i too much to be complaining?
Am i a bitch to be fussing about this?
Damn i hate this feeling.
Were we like that before?
I don't want things to change.
It may not look like it on the surface.
But oh well, everything is different on the outside now.

Fuck me for being a sickening sentimental Virgo bitch.
Fuck me for being too much to blame.
Fuck me for swearing like hell lately.
Fuck the period making me all pmsed and tempered like a mad bitch.
Fuck those bacteria or virus or whatsoever microorganisms makin me fuckin sick.

Fuck this sohai brainless post.

millions of zillions.

2010-05-09T16:24:00.003+08:00

Behold...
Ok, this would be a very emo and erm complicated and erm psycho(?) post.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
I've actually live my life like some rubbish.
Sighs.
There isn't any achievement to be really showing off I've made for all my life.
I think that I'm a smart ass, in fact, I'm bloody proud of it.
Come to think of it, that's so shallow of me.
I sure hope I was another person instead of this me.
Well, one must bear the responsible of what one has done.

身为女儿，我……很惭愧。
我曾经是个很叛逆的女儿。
但，说实在的，再怎么叛逆，我的心始终向着家里。
我曾经埋怨父母，曾经觉得他们好讨厌。
可是最后的最后，
我是多么的爱你们。
我始终牵挂着你们。
因为我们的不慎，
必须结为夫妻，
必须从家里嫁出去。
你们的不舍远远超越我对你们的不舍。
我不应该让你们如此的担心我。
虽然距离不是南北两极这么远，
但是我是多么的渴望能与你们天天相聚。
在此希望你们健健康康。
爸爸也不要再那么固执了。
去看医生好吗？
至少自己的身体要健康，才不会受那么多苦。

There's these feelings deep within me.
Now that things are all settled,
I should be preparing on my upcoming life.
I need to plan my life accordingly rite now.
A lot of stuffs to consider.
I would be all so well, if I weren't a lazy bum.
Sighs.
There isn't much problem actually,
I have the supports I need.
However there are still some things I need to take into account,
and start worrying myself.
It would be a waste of time and energy to worry actually.
But too bad,
I'm a virgoan,
Virgo just loves to think.

Actually I didn't really express all I need to say.
Words just isn't enough.
In mandarin, 百感交集啊。
ok, so till the end of this post.
I didn't really say waht I wanted to say.
ohhh, crap. -.-

Think before you throw.

2010-05-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

I'm back~~~!!!
From the Redang Islands.
Well, compare to the last trip I went there,
The corals are all dead, and half dead. -.-
The amount of the fishes has reduced so much.
I even saw graveyards of bottles,
or bottle "corpses" floating on the sea.

I also played banana boat.
The waves were so big,
it was different from the time I played back in Langkawi Islands.
The waves threw us all in the middle of the air,
We have to hold on so tight to avoid being thrown into the waters.
And now I have muscle strains. :(
So pain.
The bus trip was also a pain in the ass. -.-
8-9 hours in the bus. My God @_@

Goint to bring baby back home tomorrow afternoon.
I doubt I will be fully recover from the trip's pain,
But oh well, I miss my baby.
Miss his kinda nice and kinda smelly smell. LOL wad ish tht.
Miss his chubby chubby face where I always kiss so hard.
Eeeeee, baby mommy miss you. :)
See you tomorrow aites?

strong will! I need you!

2010-04-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

STARTING MY GODDAMN JOURNEY ON SLIMMING DOWN!
OH YEA!
So there's this product "Herbalife", yea,
My sis-in-law, Angie has sponsored me a set of it.
The product is to take place of ur meal.
And in order to slim down effectively,
You have to substitute 2 meals a day, into Herbalife.
You can blend in some fruit with the product.

OK.
So she brought a special weighing "thing" to weigh my health level n stuffs.
My weight is "a number to be strictly protected from publicity". =.= kill me pls.
I haven't been drinking enough water,
so it shows that the water level in my body isn't enough,
AND having less water in the body is what causes u to be "shui zhong".
My fats level is "ohemgee another number to kill me pls".
Cause it's so OVER the normal level.
and THIS is what makes me SO deserved to be killed.
I'M 20YO, AND MY BODY IS A BODY OF SOMEONE AGED 34YO.
MAN. I'M SO OLD, WHAT THE EFF?

I so need to build up my will!
My will to stay strong and fight "seductive" foods.
"I MUST NOT RAPE FOODS FOR THE FATS SAKE." I swear.
"Say NO to ~~FOODS~~!" Kill me if I don't.

Damn I'm hungry right now, the worst time of the day to be eating.
I should really stock up in cucumbers,
whenever I'm hungry,
I should just chew on one.

To all of you out there, NEVER bring food to me.
HELP ME PLS, I BEG ALL OF YOU. T_T
I wanna be 20YO maaaa.
If I could, I wanna kill my husband, who lives to eat.
He's the most threatening person, and he's 24-7 with me. =.=

gah yao ah, teoh ai jia!
Belief in yourself, and always save a picture of how you would be after restraining yourself for a few months!
Muahahahah.
*sim*

long lost treasure

2010-04-23T00:56:00.005+08:00

Just finished a quick shower,
then feeding session for my baby boyyy.

Well! Went to the OUG pasar malam with the girls.
yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~
Met may may for the 1st time since she came back from Pulau Pangkor.
She gave me a big tight huggie. hehe. better than my hubby's hug. *shy*

And here starts the story.
I rmb I wrote in one of my previous post.
I will shop like mad when I get the chance.
And today was first trial, in OUG night market!
erm, I would rate it 6/10.
Cos I didn't find all the things I want.
And I saw nice things that the OLD TIME me would definitely fit in.
sigh, but not the me now. =.=
gaaahhhhhhhh...
Night market stuffs are SO NICE nowadays!
The most "wallet" threathening fact is they're all so frigging cheap!
I'm really looking forward to go to a shopping mall,
and a next trip to the night market. :D
I need to get my stuffs ready before I go to Redang Island!

grrrrrrrrrr~~
Imma wild animal filled with shoping rage!

OK ciaos nid to sleep~

oh so geli

2010-04-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

OH EM GEE!
I just took a sip of my own breast milk.
so geli man. ._."
the taste is like..... i dunno how to describe. ._.

pretty upset this few days.
unknown reason.
just don't feel good.
a little frustrated.

well. I guess I'll get over these mood swings pretty soon.

p/s: hope to get some visitors. haha.

carrots

2010-04-16T00:45:00.002+08:00

Every carrot has it's own hole to match it's shape.
Same applies to love.
One's love can only find one other love to match it.
When one finds it,
It will always belong to oneself.
Because there's no same carrot in the whole world.

btw
call me a biatch or what.
I don't give a DAMN.
just feeling bitchy. blueks.

from an apple to a potato

2010-04-09T22:57:00.003+08:00

Pheeeeeeeeeeewwww.
Very hard to get myself some free time to be updating now.
Cos I have to babysit my little angel.
Although he doesn't need my attention every minute,
but besides taking care of him,
I've got house works to do.
Even if I have a little free time when I've finished all the works and baby's sleeping,
I would go to bed to take some rest until baby wakes up.
Do I sound like some housewife? D:
And if u ask, where's your partner who's suppose to help you?
Well, Let's put it this way,
I'm doing 85% of the job,
he's only taking part in the other 15%. -.-
Couldn't complain much actually.
I wasn't expecting him to be much of a help either.
Well, not all of them with a JJ is good in house works and baby sitting.
It's good his actually helping out a little,
especially in the midnights.

Hmmm,
His complaining I'm treating him pretty bad lately.
Say I very LCLY.
Eh, hello. I'm so tired everyday.
And you're not helping much,
somemore everyday wanna gek me.
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?
I didn't scold you like other women would do then you should tau siu lor.
But to be truthful,
I also feel that,
I'm not that "very" soft, "very" gentle, "very" guai girlfriend anymore.
After marrying,
I've changed my way towards him. hohoho.
Still!
I'm "quite" soft, "quite" gentle, "quite" guai at times geh.
Depend on my mood lor. ngek ngek ngek.
Don't misunderstand.
My love towards him is still the same geh. *shy*

It's been one week since I started taking care of baby all by myself.
It's quite an easy task for me,
But it's tiring.
Waking up in the midnight every 3hours is not a nice feeling.
A lot of 1st times.
I always feel so tired,
however, once baby needs something,
I will throw all the tiredness and complains away.
Looking at my baby is just so geram. :D

Looking forward for my next outing.
Wish to slim down a.s.a.p.
looking real fugly rite now.
okies gtg.

该喜还是该忧？

2010-03-29T15:24:00.002+08:00

唉……
这份无奈，该从何解释？
从好的方面来讲，自然有它的好处。
但是它带来的困扰，远远盖过了它能给的好处。
而且说实在的……我不稀罕。
普普通通的不好吗？
拜托……想想人家的感受再做，行吗？
站在别人的角度上想过了吗？
算了……也该习惯了。来日方长啊。

Thursday is the first month. :D
1st April. Hehe..
Then I can officially "lat sou"!
YAY!
But I still have to take care la. :)
And on the 2nd April will be the dinner.
Can't wait to have fun on that day. :D

I will be going on a trip to Pulau Redang during early May.
Yipee~ But it's a group trip with my hubby's friend.
Not honeymoon trip. sobs..
nvm, sure got chance. heh heh.

ok baby crying write again soon

the cover

2010-03-27T19:36:00.002+08:00

hehe.
I think this background is so cute. :D
babies...
Ngam sai, I have a baby at home rite now. hoho
7 more days!! ngam ngam one more week.
the aunty will be leaving on the 3rd of April.
2nd april will be my baby's full month day.

haih.. but Im still very fat.
WUWUWUWUWUWUWUWUWWUWU T_T
they say at least 3 months till my body really "shrinks".
My arse is..... T_T
My stomach still looks like I'm 4/5months pregnant.
My thighs looks like elephant leg. my godddddddddd.
urghhhhh.

Anyways,
Can't wait to see you guys on the 2nd :D

<3's

i'm a human being, for god's sake.

2010-03-26T11:42:00.002+08:00

as the title.
I'm a human being,
not some pig,
that u lock up,
and feed me same old rubbish everyday,
and expect me not to get bored of it.

Since a kid,
i couldn't eat much.
The amount of food i eat is fixed.
My stomach is not a flexible balloon.
I'm not a cow, i don't have 5 stomachs.
Besides,
even if i'm hungry,
looking at the same food everyday,
which doesn't have the brightest color,
ruins my appetite.
I'm not a T-rex.
T-rex can't survive without meat.
But now,
i'm not to eat any veges.
I love veges,
i have to eat vege everyday,
if not i don feel right.
I haven eat veges for 3 friggin weeks.

It feels like i'm telling some horror story. -.-
but that aunty keep forcing me,
like urgh...
And she complains to my hubby.
Like i care,
i will eat wat i can eat,
let me repeat this,
i'm not a pig nor a cow.
I'm a human being with limited stomach.
Let me tell u something,
1 more week and i'm a goddess.
Freedom man, FREEDOM!
Free from this hell hole,
halleluyah for my stomach.

heaven or hell

2010-03-21T15:52:00.002+08:00

Post natal massaging,
I love it and hate it the same time.

I love it because it slims my body down.
I hate it because its frigging pain. -.-

Yesterday that urut lady did kua sa / kuat sha for me.
And now my flabby arm part is all blue black. :S
and few parts of my back oso.
Pain like dunno how to describe when she did that for me.
Now still pain.
The blue blacks I think will be gone 1 week later.
SO CHAM. like kena whack.

haih. write ha write ha very sleepy..
or the alcohols fatt jok? O.o

continue some other time. buay tahan. *yawn*

so not a drinker.

2010-03-18T14:00:00.002+08:00

very paiseh to say,
but I was drunk last nite.
cos I drank one glass of DOM,
then I went doom.

It was 12 something when I first drank the half glass in my room.
Thinking it's the first time trying dowan la drink too much.
Then half glass down,
ady started to feel a little different.
Can't even stand still.
Then that hubby say,
"drink la. nothing one la. drink more good for you. bou ah."
OK lor. since it's at home ma, plus mabuk ady just sleep lor, rite?
So I drank another half glass.
dang dang dang dang "the doomed symphony"

Ahem, I really don wanna remind myself about this,
but those who went to the Pulau Langkawi trip with me before.
Shall know how am I when I'm drunk. *shyLOLWTF*
One glass down, everything became x3 or x4.
And I think I kept asking questions.
Hubby watching his Naruto, I remember him "fu him" me.
And because of the momo incident,
"momo was brought back to his mom's place, forced to"
Hubby say I kept crying because of momo.
seriously I don't remember me crying.
And he did something very inethical to be mentioned here. =.=
Fxck him on tricking me into doing stupid stuffs.
And laugh like an evil ugly frog the next day. =_______=
yes I have a VERY stupid VERY dumb punya hubby.

OH and something really funny I did and remember.
I think I did the same before in Langkawi too.
Maybe I was too noisy,
so the hubby "SHHHHH" at me.
then I keep copy him.
"shhhhh"
"shhhhhhhhh~~"
"SHHHHHH, don't make noise ah~~"
HAHAHAHA.
But I don't know how long I did that.

Lol. really mempersiasuikan lor.
people drink DOM, I drink DOM,
why I drink until liddat one...? haih

But at least I drank.
lalala~
See tonite will get drunk again or not. lol

~<3

twelve days.

2010-03-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the 12th day after I give birth.
Which means it's also the 12th day of my baby boy on earth.
And follow tradition it's a day that we should cook the vinegar pork leg, and the yellow wine chicken to treat the relatives.
And because I didn't give birth naturally,
a lot of foods can only be eaten after the 12th day.
which means not the same old taste every meal again.
Hallelujah. Amitabha. whatsoever prayers they have on earth.
And I also started to drink them alcohols last nite..

AND AND, I didn't wash my hair.
I can still tahan fyi.
AND AND, baby officially got a name.
If u wanna noe ask me privately. :D
AND tommorow I can start the post-natal massaging.
which means I am to get rid of the ugly spare tyre.

Momo is getting out of hospital today.
Kelian de momo. ):
Yam gong.. I'm afraid I will cry when I see him.
Cannot cry. will kena marah one leh. ):

Baby boy is doing fine. :D
Got more "yuk gan" of him day by day.
every morning after me and the hubby wake up,
he sure go carry him and put him on our bed between us.
Hehe. so cuteeeee..

Can't wait for this one month to pass.
Waahahahahha.
For now, I'm kinda confident on taking care of baby.
*ahem* different case la by then. lol *fingerscrossed*
Then we will be officially one warm little cute family..
aww so cute, daddy mommy baby and momo.
LOL WTF. bare with me n my stupid sweet dreams. :D

ok laa. I wanna continue my stupid day dreams.
HEHEHEHEHEHHE.

tata~

you'll always be my love. :')

2010-03-09T12:24:00.002+08:00

forgot to mention about this very very important thing in my previous post.

My MoMo.
I've been missing him since the day I went away from home,
to go to the hospital.
Everytime I think about him,
I will feel like crying.
I was with momo everyday since the day I bought him.
It's been one whole year.
And now separating him away from me makes me feel so sad.
It's not good to keep pets when there's a small baby at home.
Sigh...
Everytime hubby comes back from his mom's place,
I'll be very sure to ask, "how's momo?"

But today,
he went back home to have lunch with his parents,
and he called me and told me this bad news.
Momo has to go for a surgery.
Since months ago momo was suspected to have problems.
His testicles cannot be seen.
And finally today,
hubby's 2nd brother called the vet to come.
And he said momo has to go for a surgery to do sth with the balls.

damn, why should this happen when I'm not with momo?
Do you know how worried was I when receive such news?
I couldn't help my tears.
I mean, it's not serious matter like his gonna die or sth.
But momo's gonna suffer pain. :((((((((((((((((
And I couldn't even hug him or talk to him before he go to the hospital.
I'm his mommy. :( and I failed miserably.

I wonder if he would forget me after one month?
Especially when he's gonna go through such serious matter,
and I'm not there for him.
Doggies have feelings, just like human beings too ya know.
Breaks my heart to think about this.
What if when I get to see him, but he doesn't like me like how he did before?
What if he didn't run to me passionately when I call and jump for me to hug him?
What if he doesn't manja me and sticks to me anymore?
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........

JUST SO SAD AND EMO!

Momo I really hope you'll know.
I don't mean to abandon you.
And I'll always love you, like you're one of my baby.
Even though now I couldn't play with you cause your little master is born.
I'll be very sure to bring you back to me when it's time alright?
Please be safe and healthy.
Mommy will be there to pray for you, momo baby. :")

baby baby

2010-03-08T14:51:00.012+08:00

03-03-2010

04-03-2010

05-03-2010

06-03-2010

07-03-2010

My boy ♥
hehee.

Went to the hospital this morning to get the stitches out.
Get to clean myself after that.
Just that I still can't wash my hair. ._.
And it's best to wash it after a month.
but why some of them can wash it after 12 days?
YERRRRR~ NO FAIR.
see la how long I can tahan,
can tahan then tahan lor.

Confinement care is yucky. ._.
food NEVER fails to taste the same every meal.
sigh.
one whole month wei.
its only the 4th day today. omg

yer, babyboy doesn't want to suck my nen-nen, lol wtf.
T-T, mommy geh nen-nen not yummy meh. ahem
no choice lor. have to pump out the milk for him.

he's one little grumpy baby. >=[
haiyo, cries and scream like nobody's business when his hungry.
and also a attention seeking little fella.
wants ppl to carry him one wor,
if not he'll make noise until someone gives him the attention he wants.

hmmm, my butt is aching. write again soon.

bb~

a new chapter

2010-03-05T12:39:00.001+08:00

Giving birth is hell of an experience.
But believe me, it's not that pain that i've imagined.
And they say i'm tough. Woots. *eyebrows*
(yes i'm proud of myself coughcough)

Currently waiting to go home.
Can't wait to get myself back home, it's so bored here.
All i can do is sleep, sleep and sleep.
But at least this morning i managed to find something to do.

I couldn't sleep anymore. All i do the previous 2days is just sleep.
So i woke up and walked to the nursery room myself.
Sat there and look at my baby, took the courage to carry him, as i see him struggling in the blanket.
After a while of cuddling and calling him,
For the very first time, my baby opened his eyes big, just to stare at me.
When i say 'hello baby, its mommy here', he looks as if he understands.
Or maybe he heard the voice he's always been listening to.
So he tries to see how does the very familiar 'voice' looks like.
Looking at me, no struggle, no crying, saying hello to me with his eyes.
And i also breast fed him. This time successful.
He really sucked it. Lol. But not geli wor. O.o
but then suck half way, he shitted.
The nurses were busy, changed the diaper for him myself.
Guess i still have some skills left after so many years when my brother was still a baby. *eyebrows*

and i found out,
his lips are definitely not daddy's lips.
While cuddling him, i observed my baby boy carefully. And his lips remind me of my brother's.
And my brother has always been said that he has the exact lips like mine.
So my baby has my lips. :)
oh he has double eyelids too. What else. O.o
his eyes not sure yet. Nose, i dunno how to observe a nose. Lol.
What else? His head?
His head is, big.
And long.
I mean the back side of the head isn't flat.

That's it for today. I'll be writing again soon. Hehe.

dont know what title to write

2010-03-03T07:27:00.002+08:00

yeap.. it's 7.30am in the morning of 3rd march.
getting ready to go to the clinic.
2 hours later my baby will be born.
(and I'll be dead fish.)
I am scared of operation mannnnn.
must be very painful.
I dont need anyone to tell me how it feels.
I can feel the pain rite now. T-T

and for the next 2-3 days..
I'll be lying on the bed, feeling drowsy all the time.
good, it's cause I can sleep.
no good, it's cause i have to sleep in pain. ._.

BAHHH..
IT'LL BE FINE.
STAY STRONG TEOH AI JIA. HA!!!
GAMBATEH! JIA YOU! GAH YAU! FIGHTING! >=]

=S

final days

2010-03-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

my last check up.
and it's decided.
I am to perform a C-sect.
Day and time set : 3rd March.

No choice,
Baby haven't gone down.
and it would be dangerous if baby is overdue.
So must get him out before things go bad.

sigh...
A little disappointed,
but what's important is that both mother and child is safe.
So, look at the bright side.
Finally can see how my dearie looks like. :D
eeeee so gan cheong. haha

Anyway,
not in the mood to talk much.
Shall bring everyone good news the day after tomorrow.

<3's

long long wait

2010-03-01T01:22:00.002+08:00

don't be surprised.
yea I'm wide awake now.
should be resting for someone like me at this time of a day.
but I got enough rest ady.
Couldn't fall into my next sweet dreams so soon yet.

as the title itself,
waited for 10 whole months.
Baby... why don't you come out now?
everyone is tired of waiting already. lol. -.-
been answering this question SO SO much recently.
"when are you gonna give birth?"
can only answer with a tired smile on my face,
"ha ha. . . soon geh larh..."
I am sooooo tired of answering ady. -.-
it comes.. WHEN IT COMES.
not like I can control. (unless I demand a C-sect rite NOW)
I know.. It's a matter of concern,
and you asking this question too,
can't wait to see my little angel.
I promise,
when the time has finally arrived,
I will be SURE to tell ALL of you waiting for my great news aite?
~loves~

Going for the next, probably the last check up a couple of hours later.
Sigh..
Blame me for not being very active,
didn't exercise much during pregnant. O.o ( I wonder )
Baby has yet to go down into the position.
WUWUWUWU~
and seeing my due date is only THREE DAYS LATER.
NOOO, I dowan an operation.
Thinking of it makes me tremble rite now. O_O
I mean...
I am concious when it happens.
Like my mom said,
you can feel the doctor "korek" your stomach. *terrorized shriek eeeeekkkk*
omgomgomg.. stop thinking O.O

ARGHHHHHH..
PATIENCE ME~~
GAMBATEH BABY~~
CAN'T WAIT FOR ALL THIS TO BE OVER.
AND NEXT COMES THE CONFINEMENT NIGHTMARE.
ARGHHHHHHH..
CRAZY SILLY ME~~
JUST CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER.
Baby I wanna hold you and kiss you and cuddle you and feed you and play with you and snuggle you and hug you and sing to you..
truck loads of things in list waiting for you. :D

OH another headache.
can't find a name for my baby yet. D:
(slap us, I know x.x)
no name that gives us the "AHA! THIS IS IT" feeling yet.
sighhhh.
headaches headaches...
BRRRRR..
I think if i continue to write..
I might get into a state of a crazy woman.
(OwO") kisiaoness.
bye bye~

<3's

gambateh~ gambateh~

2010-02-21T16:44:00.003+08:00

Half of Chinese New Year has passed.
How's CNY for everyone this year?
Mine was okok la.. not so bad lo..
Just very very tired..
CNY = late night gambling / painin / outing / movies.
Most of the time will be watching hubby gambling only.
Didn't join myself.
And hor... I did enjoy mandarins.. yums :D
Junk foods not much la...
Chrysanthemum tea is my only choice of beverage.
I don't like lychee or sugar cane.
I can't drink can drinks... not to mention Anglia shandy T_T my favourite.

Watched a few movies during CNY,
and the only acceptable one is "72 Tenants of Prosperity".
Others are just soso, and some nono.

21st Feb 2010.
I'm 38 weeks+ pregnant.
40 weeks for a full pregnant cycle,
make it 1 week+ to go till my due date.
All of them saying that I might give birth earlier,
now changed their mind and say mine'll be later. -.-
Tummy is still quite high,
which means baby hasn't sink into the position to be born out yet.
cham lor...
If by the time I get into labour and baby is still not down enough,
this means I need to go for a C-sect. T-T
wo pa pa nehhhh.
I'm advised to walk more.
But the problem is,
My feet are swelling,
I couldn't walk much, my feet will become effing pain.
If I got a private swimming pool then good lor..
Baby ga yau ah~ this coming week must go down to the position aite?
gambateh~ gambateh~

tomoro morning going for the next check up.
wonder what will the doctor say.
gan cheonging.

off to take a nap~

tata~

<3's

.heart broken.

2010-02-08T21:38:00.002+08:00

nothing can describe my feelings rite now.
I was advised to apply oil or lotion since i was 2-3mths pregnant to avoid stretch marks.
Well, SADLY, it doesn't work well on me..
Browse through forums and they say,
stretch marks is genetic.
If u have it, no matter how many buckets of oil you use,
It will still come.
The nurse in my clinic also said that.
I guess my mom has it but not as serious as mine.
Cause when she saw mine,
she said :"omg, why yours so serious one? I oso don't have liddat geh."
-.- haih... The feeling is like wanna cry, but no tears.....
....................................
...........
........................
........................................ -.-

I have stretch marks on side of my waist, on the thigh, on the buttocks,
a little on the breast, a few stripes at my lower abdominal part.
Especially the waist part, reli hong bou.
And my butts are like, leopard prints or maybe tiger prints. =O
cause my boy is a baby tiger,
so I shall become a tigress la now? D=

After a long period, maybe a year or less.
It will fade and become silvery lines.
unless u stare at it, it won't be obvious.
really hope so.. but still not nice ady lor.
Means I'm not to wear bikini for a year. -.-
NO MORE HONEYMOON TO BEACH SIDE PLACES?!
That is another thing breaking my heart.
No more fair and smooth and nice skin of mine. :(
WHY IS MY SKIN SO ZHA PET ONE?
allergic to seafoods and some other things,
Then now lost to ^%@*&^@# stretch marks.
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I gained frigging 16kg throughout my whole pregnancy.
A little more than average.
10-15kg is the optimum weight gained during pregnancy.
The bottom half of the body is terribly out of shape. (through my own eyes)
And also my arms are so big now.
My Legs are ENORMOUS! not funny. D:
I feel like a water balloon / snowman.
Awfully swollen. D:<

aiya...
calm down la..
it's coming to an end anyway...
some would ask, nervous mou?
actually....
rite now, nopes.
maybe when getting into labour guaaa.
aiya... nothing one la. shang zai only ma...
just push lor... lol.
now at least let me enjoy CNY la. :D
cheer me up a bit. hehe.
OKAYS, nid to rest ler.
buaiis.

<3's

mother

2010-02-07T18:02:00.002+08:00

Mothers are greatest.
Now I understand it even better.
Bearing a child, isn't easy stuff.
Maybe just a little number of them don't feel hard.
Unfortunately, I'm not in that little number.

Talk about appearance.
Although I don't look hideous now. -.-
But think of how I looked before this.
Ok, maybe the looks will come back after I give birth.
and also the shape of the body.
But I'm in that unfortunate group of women,
who get stretch marks.
Although my pregnant journey is coming to an end.
The stretch marks did not stop spreading.
It's floating out on my thigh,
like it's gonna swallow my whole thigh.
I don't like to wear long pants, u know.
I only love skirts, hot pants, anything that doesn't cover my whole leg.
cause it makes me look like a short & fat idiot.
Now? T_________________T
*itotallycannotimagineaboutwhatisnext"

This one last month,
I COULDN'T FRIGGING SLEEP WELL.
Cause of... back pain? and some other reasons I don't know.
One of the books said that,
this is to practice for the future when the baby comes out.
That's why.. parenting isn't an easy job.
Be thankful to your daddy n mommy,
ESPECIALLY mommy. lol

**********

How's preparation for CNY?
I guess everyone is well prepared,
If you're not, better get it done by this week.
As the next Sunday that falls upon us is already the first day of Chinese new year!
This year CNY is a little different for me..
ANG PAU NO MORE.
I'm giving them myself this time. =.=
become aunty jor wtf.
And it's a little tense for me n the hubby.
Have to brace ourselves for the any minute exploding time bomb,
which is yours sincerely. =D
ok, should I like "OMGOMGOMG, I'm a walking time bomb."
not funny? lol.. yea i know not funny. -.-

CNY ALL TIME FAVOURITE : MANDARIN!
I only ate 3-4 of them.
last time, eating mandarin is like drinking water. o.o
I love it soooooo much.
But i couldn't eat much this year..
SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD..... D=
just thinking of it makes my mouth water rite now. D=
AND AND those snacks,
deep fried "nga goo"? nehhh those that looks like potato chips geh.
small peanut puffs?
small meat floss rolls?
AIYERRRR. I CANNOT EAT.
I mean not cannot la.. I can only eat a bit.
last time you would see me hugging one jar of any of them above walking around in CNY.
geramnyerrrrrrrrr. D=

arghhhhh.
to all of you reading,
next time wanna get pregnant hor..
smart a bit, don't choose the period on CNY.
You will regret one lo seriously.
or maybe you don't like CNY foods la. o.o

ok i need to go bath ady....
hope to write soon. o.o
if i got the mood. D=
cya~~

<3's

practice

2010-01-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

I think I was too exhausted these two days.
On Monday,
went shopping whole day with the hubby,
then at night helped out cleaning the maternity house.
Then due to some reason didn't get enough sleep.
Thus, false labour.

But this time was wayyyy different than how it was the last time.
Me and the hubby thought baby is coming out so soon already. -.-
The pain started around 8.50pm,
comes n goes every 5minutes.
It becomes more pain each time.
The stomach was also harder and stiffer like a rock.
One should be resting in such situations rite.
Hehe, still, I went out to Mid Valley as my ji-mui's and LHT-JACS are over there.
Hubby needed to get the shoes from Marvin,
and I thought it wouldn't harm to go see my ji-mui's. :D
But the false labour did not stop.

After that, reached home around 11pm.
The pain drew away all my energy.
Lied on the bed, and fell asleep.
Woke up a couple of minutes ago.
And it went away... tadaaa. lol.

Hubby and I kept telling our little baby,
"don't come out so fast k,
wait till CNY's over first.
Or at least become a tiger zai,
not a moomoo zai."
Maybe, he listened. =D

okays, back to get some rest.

<3's

spit it out.

2010-01-26T14:23:00.001+08:00

I just need to say this stuff.
couldn't keep it within me.
just needed to spill it somewhere else.

I feel like.... I can't decide even for my own life?
Yes, I do have plans to do this and that.
but, things aren't so easy,
when you're not with your own family.
Even with the own family,
things might not go your way,
imagine where my situation is right now.
I am in a place, where I couldn't voice my opinion.
And what's worse, the hub acts as a kiddy.

The house where I will spend 1month for my maternity month.
It was said if we are fine staying there,
it will be ours to stay.
OK, honestly.
I am friggin happy.
I feel stressed out staying with the parents-in-law.
I am not the type to communicate with elders easily.
Last nite, we went over there with the parents
to sorta clean the house and bring some needed stuffs over there.
After everything is done,
went back home, and our mood was really good.
But later that night,
we were told that, the 2nd brother brought a bunch of friends,
and gambling over there in that house.
The feeling was like, a thunder struck us through.
like WHAT THE HELL rite?
There was this incident months ago,
where they say the 2nd bro wants to go over there to stay.
BUT it was just said. like rumours stuff.
that house is too big for just 1 person to stay in,
and what's worse, he wouldn't clean and take care of the house.
So , now what?
minds changed, and we're not gonna stay over there anymore?
or just for that 1 month period?

It's not that I wanna complain.
I just want to at least decide for my own life,
AND for my own child.
I am the parent,
I have the rights.
I am really happy to accept advices and sharing of experience.
But not interference into my decision and my life.

OK, I THINK THIS IS ENOUGH.
ANYMORE WILL MAKE THINGS WORSE.
THIS CRAP IS TO BE REMAIN IN THIS BLOG.
I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE ABOUT THIS.
THAT'S ALL. FULL STOP.

Woops.. =P

2010-01-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

Ok, I broke my words.
I did not update on the day that I mentioned in my previous post.
Hehe.

SO...
Saw my little baby again that day.
He's fine.
Head still a little bit bigger.
But the doctor say it's fine,
nothing serious to worry about,
cos every baby measures differently.
Can't find two 100% same geh baby.

And we talked about delivering the baby.
Currently there's two kinds of pain killer used in Malaysia.
One is called Pethidine,and another one Epidural anesthesia.
The first one reduces the pain,
but not removing the pain 100%.
This makes one feel sleepy,
but compared to the next one, it is more often used in Malaysia.
Epidural is an injection at the back,
and half of the body will become numb.
Making you feel nothing at all.
And of course the pain of labour will become nothing.
But because of this,
one may not have enough strength to push the baby out naturally,
and needs the help of a vacuum thingy to erm,
hisap the baby out?
This makes ppl feel so uneasy. -.-
And it makes me feel like....
no.... I don wan that vacuum thingy....... to go in my petpet. ._. LOL
Heard this from the sis-in-law,
saying that one of her frens did this,
and after that her petpet is swollen,
she cant even sit properly due to the pain. -.-
It made me went "............"
SO, that is a NO! haha.. -.-

Packed my “走佬袋”. (canton : jau lou doi ; direct translate : running away bag)
Got the list of the items from the doctor.
Baby's stuff 90% ready.
The house where I will be for my chor yuet is still under preparation.
Will be done any day soon.
(maybe that will be where we staying permanently in the future.
still yet to be decided, cos have to see the 1mth staying over thr ok or not)
~~*hopefullyit'sanok*~~

ai yai yai~~~~~~~
CNY coming lerrrrrr,
Baby coming lerrrrrr...
huhu...
aiyerrr, stop lerrr,
don wanna make myself nervous. =D

stay tuned~~~~~~~~
<3's ~~~~~~~~~~

nightmare.

2010-01-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

Haven been updating for some time.
what did I do this whole week?
Hmmm. went swimming for not twice, but thrice this week.
Spent all my free times browsing through online shops.
And I think I'm seriously addicted to it,
cause I couldn't stop thinking bout it any minute. -.-
Too bad, I don't have a choice
cause I think I might be the most FREE person in the world.
free daooooooooo, I oso dunno how to say.
And shopping / "image" shopping online kills my time efficiently.
Cause of this....
The idea of starting my own online shop kept bugging me.
Still figuring and studying how to make things work.
It looks so easy,
but when seriously starting to get into it,
things became much more complicated.
WELL, hope it works,
at least I can earn myself some extra pocket money. *yums* =P

Enough with the dreams,
now comes the nightmare.....
IT'S SO SOON ALREADY!!!
The little baby will have to come out and face this world himself.
But still, daddy n mommy will promise you a safe and warm world,
just like where you are right now. =)
The 1month "chor yuet" nightmare is also crawling closer. -.-

You know what, I just learned this today.
A woman cannot drink water - pure water during chor yuet.
If not the stomach will be big? swollen? or sth liddat.
omg lor.. water oso cannot drink. -.-
can only drink those red dates water, or milo or sth else just not pure water.
AND AND I guess everyone knows this.
A woman cannot shower during chor yuet.
I really cannot imagine, what if I don't wash my hair for 1 freaking month.
I'll go crazy, and become a siao za bo.
But it's seriously really important to have your chor yuet properly.
Any small little mistake matters and may affect the whole life. =S
Oh, and those who know me well,
should know that I'm not a drinker.
But there are these rice wine la, erm, chicken wine? ginger wine?
I dunno wad wine la, have to drink these wines during chor yuet.
I'm worried that, I will get drunk after drinking those. lol
I don't wan baby to have a drunk mother right after he comes out. ._.

AND AND can I not eat those chor yuet foods.
Erm. "pork leg vinegar" (direct translate frm canton) is yucky.
Erm. "fried pig liver/kidney" (or any freaking animal offal) is YUCKY!
And chor yuet food sure will put a lot of ginger like it doesn't cost a cent.
...getting sick just by thinking of it ady. T-T

haihzzz.
ok currently sitting in the cafeteria of this badminton court,
where the hubby is inside burning his fats, kononnya.
I don't find any of his fats burnt. -.-
Tomoro can see my dear little one again. =)
cause it's time for my next check up.
hmmmm, what more what more?
will update tomoro,
if I remember. *fingerscrossed*
might just get lost in online wonderland again. Haha.

stay tuned.
<3's

bear with my whining

2010-01-09T01:04:00.004+08:00

Normally, at this time of the year.
I should be shopping and hunting for new clothes around the malls.
To prepare for Chinese New Year.

But now, I can only admire those clothes hanging in the shops.
Don't even have the guts to touch it,
tears might be rolling down the cheek. LOL dramatic me.
The very evil hubby, -.-
is being as evil as usual,
people know I effing cannot fit into that cloth,
but hello I'm a girl maaaa,
I saw this cloth I think very nice,
I'm just trying to tell you,
the cloth is nice. *and I'm very kelian, can see cannot touch*
You don't have to effing use your dead fish eyes,
scan through my whole body,
smile like some ugly frog,
and say:" You can wear meh?"
WHAT THE EFF LORRRRR....
I'm so kelian. :(
I LIKE TO BUY IT AND HANG IT ALL ROUND MY ROOM,
TO REMIND MYSELF TO SLIM DOWN QUICKER CANNOT?
SEI FAT ASS AHHH. i hate you D:

And now I'm being all emo,
cos I have not been shopping like those ordinary girls out there,
for like... 8 months?!
The desire to go shopping within me,
is going chaotic n driving me mad.
wuwuwu~ someone there to lend me a shoulder that I can cry on?
I wanna dump that fat ass ady.

1+months till my baby coming out,
No point I buy some preggy cloths now.
Wouldn't be wearing them after baby is born.
Buy those ordinary cloths, later can't wear pulak.
So must tahan abit. Don't waste the money first.
Save it up, until I finish "chor yuet".
Ohohohohoho.

ok, enough whining. -.-
I also feel tired ady.
*long&lifelessSigh*

Avatar.

2010-01-05T21:09:00.004+08:00

It was a last last minute plan last night,
suggested to go for a movie,
because I felt boring and I wanted to watch "Avatar".

Went for online booking,
but due to some problems was unable to book the tickets in 1Utama.
Then found out the cinema over in Tropicana City Mall,
also called Digital mall, in section 14,
(somewhere near SS2 I think.... o.o)
is extremely empty.
So, without booking,
we went straight over there after dinner.
Bought a ticket,
although the cinema is really empty,
we need to queue up 20 minutes for drinks and snacks. -.-
Got our butts set in the chair just the right time. Phew. =p

Movie was great.
Even the very picky hubby said it was good.
Heh heh.

Going over to my mom's house later,
sister's birthday tomoro,
celebrating for her later.
As the hubby will go for badminton tomoro.

My sister&monther-in-law are going to a holiday to China.
So, will be helping the sister-in-law with her dance studio for one week.
arghh, the pain in the back. T-T
Sitting too long makes my back ache.

Might be crapping a lot this whole week,
cos I have nth better to do. =3= lol

<3's

Nooooooo...

2010-01-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

Just came back from my checkup.
and the measurement of my baby did not make me happy.
I am 32 weeks pregnant now,
and baby's head measured the size of a baby 34 weeks,
thigh bone the size of 33 weeks.

baby ahhh,
you're growing too well. T_T
mommy just decided to deliver you naturally,
you cooperate with mommy a little.
Don't grow too big, if not hard to pop out neh...

Hope you will be just the right size while it's time for you to come out,
like the doctor said, still quite a long way to go.
You be good kay,
don't inherit your daddy's big head genes. -.-

<3's

O or X

2010-01-03T15:12:00.002+08:00

Happy new year everyone.
and here comes 2010,
a lot of challenges awaits.
I'm gonna be a mother this year. =)

It's already January now,
due date on 4th March.
which means,
only less than 2 months ahead till my baby is born.
=S

Been asked by a lot of people,
and I myself was still hesitating.
until recently, I've decided which.
To give birth naturally?
Or to perform a Caesarean section?
Had a chat that day with hubby's sis-in-law,
which is hubby's eldest brother's wife.

Chatting with her feels good,
and we mentioned about this topic.
I've always think of naturally giving birth is better,
because performing a caesarean,
hurts our body more,
and it needs a much more longer time to recover fully after that operation.
And also harder to slim down. =p
She said that to give birth naturally is best for both the mother and the baby.
Of course, getting into labour is painful.
But she did mention this,
giving birth naturally, the pain comes when u get into labour,
by that time, you won't be that afraid anymore,
instead you would gain courage when every pain comes.
This pain will be gone right after the baby is born.
And you'll be as good as new.
Whereas, after a caesarean section,
when the anesthetic is gone,
the pain is much more painful,
imagine, your stomach is cut open. ARGHHHH the horror.. lol
And you can't take any pain killer as you will be breast-feeding your baby.
Not sure for others, but I will be. =)
The wound takes a longer time to heal,
and the pain may sustain for a few months. <-- this is horrible.

And so......
it concluded with,
I'm gonna try my best all the way,
to give birth naturally. =)
unless I really cant bear the pain,
like seriously, it's killing me those kind of pain,
then I'll ask for a caesarean.

SO,
that's all. =)
may god bless me.
love you baby.
<3's

31weeks.

2009-12-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

The tummy is getting larger n larger,
baby is growing bigger n bigger,
womb is getting heavier n heavier.

The feeling now is different from how I felt the last few months.
It did not feel good on the first trimester cause of the
morning sickness, cravings, uneasy on everything,
getting disgusted even by the favourite food.

And stepping into the mid-trimester,
things were finally turning on to the bright side.
this is the best period throughout pregnancy. =)
I can finally eat well(maybe a little too well),
sleep well, enjoy well.
This is when the baby starts moving. =)
and there's nothing troublesome at all.
best time to enjoy pregnancy.

At last,
the last-trimester of pregnancy,
which is where I am right now.
Should be well-prepared for the anytime coming soon little one.
This is when I start to gain my clumsiness.
Like seriously, moving around is becoming real hard.
After a day, my back is sure to kill me at night,
giving me a hard time to get to sleep.
Breasts are secreting sticky fluids.
And I feel that my body is awfully swollen.
Tummy feels so hard n stiff, like a big over-filled balloon.
Legs get numb easily,
and cramps happens during sleep.
Can't run around anymore. =(
Have to sit diam diam.
So I'm like, sitting around,
just waiting to "PUSH! take a deep breath, PUSH!" --> give birth. lol -.-

Finally when that time comes,
I shall revenge. >=]
Revenge on who? on myself. >=]
1st, slimming down!
And the target is 40-43kg.
Telling myself, I don't care what effing method you use,
how effing hard it will be,
just get your effing weight back to 40-43kg. >=]
Even if it means NO FOOD!
I swear! If not the hubby's gonna die.
(although he's being really innocent,
but for some reason deep within somewhere else,
which even I myself don't really know where,
he IS the one to get that. LOL)
2nd, I wanna shop back what I've lost through this 10mths,
like some MAD woman. I Don't Care. wahahahaha.
3rd, I think I would give myself half a year after giving birth to my baby,
before I step into college life.
Planning to breast-feed him, and half a year should do.
I haven't really taste the feeling of life of a college student.
I must resume my studies no matter what it is.
That's the least I must promise myself. =)
What more?
Hmmm. Honeymoon perhaps?
Didn't had a real honeymoon with the hubby after married.
So it shall be next year. =)
Some seaside perhaps? That's what we've longed for.
Shall see by the time. =)
That's all for now i guess, when there's more I'll write it down. heh heh.

Shall write again soon.
Been wanting to write for quite some time,
but the timing just isn't right and finally today,
I could write it down. =D

<3's

the night before christmas.

2009-12-25T23:44:00.004+08:00

as i said, me & the hubby spent our christmas eve with my family.

we reached there a little earlier.

the restaurant we dined in was "Albert's Cafe"

it's located in Plaza Damas, Sri Hartamas.

After my family and my grandparents reached,

we ordered some food,

as the turkey might not be enough for all of us,

and my two auntie's and the family has not reached.

The food there is quite nice.

i will rate them 7/10.

waiting for the turkey is like,

centuries. -.-

cos, only the boss is cooking in the kitchen,

he's so busy, he doesn't have the time to serve us the turkey.

while finally, the turkey was served.

it was delicious. yummiesss.

and the baked potato was omgsoyummy. hehe.

am a big fan of all kind of yummy potatoes. :D

after everyone has done filling their tummies,

it was cake time. =D

the cake that i bought.

singing the birthday song.

making a wish

(the candle was blowed by the very 38 son -.- people haven finish the wish he ady blow it. lol)

cutting the cake.

a pict with the very 38 son.

cake was yummy.

of course la, i buy geh wor. ngek ngek.

din get anymore picts.

cos i was busy chatting with the hubby. =x

that's all for today.

<3's

christmas eve - mom's bday

2009-12-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

it's christmas eve today!
and it's also my mom's birthday.
will be having dinner with my family tonight.
my mom's ordered a stuffed-turkey in some restaurant somewhere around sri hartamas.
heehee. turkey.. yums..
shall update more bout it later.
gonna go get a cake for me mommy. :D

<3's

~sorry~

2009-12-20T18:54:00.002+08:00

sorry for making u mad at times.
but sometimes i just cant control it,
i have too much in mind.
but i know,
no matter how furious and angry you are,
after a little while,
u would come back n hug me in your arms,
speaking such soft words to me,
just to comfort me.

i'm sorry, my dear.
i love you. :')

new camera =D

2009-12-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

my mom bought me a new camera. =D
she bumped into this promotion thay day in sunway pyramid,
so she bought the camera.

heh heh, can be paparazzi ady. hoho..
all of u out there.. beware~~
shall bring the camera with me the next outing.

this camera will serve me to the fullest when my little one come out.
wohohohoho~

ok enuff talk, ciaos.

<3

arghhhh.. T_T

2009-12-06T00:34:00.002+08:00

why?!
it has been there a few weeks ago,
but it's becoming obvious as days pass by.
ok.. so the thing i'm crying about is -- stretch marks.
yes STRETCH MARKS..
i have them now beside my belly.. and on the thigh.. not the whole of the thigh but at the topmost part of my thigh.
both sides.. left & right..
luckily i don have it on the stomach..
but still!!.. T__T
i have been applying those oil since 3-4 mths of my pregnancy..
and it still came.. ._.
goshhhh
i sure hope it will soon be gone after i give birth to my little one.

abo...
how do i ever wear bikini next time?! so ugleh.. T__T
pray hard... apply the oil hard.. wad more can i do? T__T

i forgot another part.. -.-
i have a few insy-winsy stretches on my
~~boobs~~, YES ~~BOOBS~~.
of course,i wont be going around showing "that" to anyone la.. -.-
but i myself will see it everyday.. oh AND the hubby. LOL!
*ahemahem*

haih.. i wan back my old "bak xut-xut, wat luet-luet" skin. LOL
ehh not L-O-L shud be crying-out-loud. ._.

getting pregnant is to uglify oneself?!
being told tht "aiyo!! u FAT jor ahh.."
have to see my body getting out of shape
then see these marks popping out of nowhere
then getting pimples due to the change in hormones
zai ah zai..
next time must sayang mommy hor..
mommy love you.

ok shall go lie on the bed.. backache starting to fatt jok.

<3

lovely hubby

2009-12-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

dedicated to the ~~big-sized~~ hubbby ♥
heh heh.. shud be really clear wad am i gonna write.
thnks to the hubby who has always been by my side..
i kno sometimes i a bit manja, =D
maybe a bit dumb dumb.. =_=
but sometimes,
i just did tht, because.......
to manja u is so much of fun. wahahahaha. xp

although thr might be times where small arguments happen in our daily life,
but still we're together now as one.
and WILL always be one.
cos we will soon be little baby's daddy n mommy.

of course, parenthood comes too sudden for us,
neither you nor i was ready for this,
but i'm sure we will do just fine as long as we stay together.
n u ahhh, pls la.. grow up a little. lol
becoming daddy jor la..
~~*ahemofcourseistillhavealottolearntoo*~~

lastly,
to my one-and-only
big size but cutie
soon-to-be baby's daddy.
i love youuuuu. ♥ muacks..

26weeks.. 14 weeks to go..

2009-11-25T16:18:00.002+08:00

6 months through,
3 months more to see the little one.
if u ask me,
i really am starting to get nervous.
and anxious to hold the little baby in my arms.

ngahh.. dont think too much. :)
everything'll be fine.

baby is being really active nowadays.
kicking/swimming/kung-fuing away in the tummy. -.-
but it has been a daily enjoy
feeling wad he is doing inside mommy.
oh, n sometimes. he would stretch -.-
which dont feel very nice if he does.

and, the fact is, i am fat.
T_T i gain too much weight.
too much unwanted weight -.-
grrrrrr..
but i just feel hungry all the time.

my mom's bought baby cloths for him.
which are all damn cute.
lucky little one, born to be pampered by so many ppl.
daddy, mommy, grandparents, uncles, aunties, kai-ma's.. no kai-ye wor. o.o

should save up to buy a camera now. :)
to take down all the cute pictures of my baby.
heh heh. go tell hubby about this first. :)
nth to write ady. boringgg.

tata~~

<3's
mom-to-be

random.

2009-11-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

Thinking of you, Wherever you are.

We pray for our sorrows to end,
And hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.

And who knows?
Starting a new journey may not be so hard.
Maybe it has already begun...

There are so many worlds,
But they share the same sky --
One sky, One destiny.

-Kingdom Hearts, Kairi-

hehe something random..
cos i miss ps2 games so much.. lol o.O
miss the old times where i can stay up whole day jz for games..
just to chase the storyline of the games..
just going crazy over the games..
kingdom hearts, final fantasy, harvest moon blablabla..
T___T i wanna play!! but there is no tv now in my room for me to play.
sadness..

n now im sitting in front of the computer,
blogging about sth random while playing musics to my babyyy in the tummy
while reminding myself to take the vitamins
n not to forget to apply the lotion on the tummy.
n waiting for the hubby to come back frm badminton..
n erm... trying to drink a lot of water...
n controlling not to get mad due to the boredness.. O.O

aiya all so random.. off to bully my momo.. T_T lifeless`ness

-<3

my baby boy =)

2009-10-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

went for the monthly check up today.
while parking the car.
the hubby popped this out.

"im nervous"
"o.o why jek?"
"cos....... we're going to get to noe isit a petpet or a jiaojiao."
"..... u dont say laaa. making me nervous oso."
"yerrr, i wan a jiaojiao."
"-.- oi stop it la.. i starting to sweat"
"okok."

waited for the doctor,
tested my urine, blood pressure,
measured the weight. (and now my weight is frigging 53kg T_T)
and doctor said i shud control.
normally pregnant woman grow heavier 1.5kg each month.
i weigh 49 last month n now? 53!!! goshhh. T_T

AND finally,
time to see my babyyyy.
can see the hubby face kinda pale.. HAHA. he was so nervous.

before scanning, the doctor asked
"do you wan me to see the sex of the baby?"
"yea, of course"

baby's head was fine.
baby's heartbeat was fine.
baby's bones were fine.
baby's legs were fine.

and here goes.
baby was really cooperating today.
the legs were wide open,
and there we saw the small little penis. =x
"there! can you see the penis? its a baby boy. definitely a boy."
woots.
the hubby's mouth cracked with a wide smile.
he was so happy. cos he had always hoped for a boy. haha

after the check up was done. he made phone calls.
and even called up his fren just to tell thm tht. -.- lol

as for me,
im fine enough.
no matter jiaojiao or petpet.
its still our baby. :)

loves,
mom-to-be <3

你的歌 - 陶喆

2009-10-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

你的歌

歌手：陶喆

喜欢你冷淡的安静笑容又胜过了太阳我只能投降

怀疑自己的冲动怕机会一瞬间错过决定不再想

你说我们是两个世界的人 (但)是否可能

我相信只要我爱你什麽都可以一切都可以 oh...

♥♥♥
我爱你
爱你没道理没道理爱你
爱你就可以就是痴心的
痴心的沉溺沉溺在爱你
就让我沉溺 yeah...
♥♥♥

无法理解你不说话我进不到你心里面像有一道墙

怀疑当初的冲动是不是开始就是错许多事没想

你说我们是两个世界的人已没有可能

我以为只要我爱你什麽都可以一切都可以

♥♥♥

我爱你

爱你没道理没道理爱你

爱你就可以就是痴心的

痴心的沉溺沉溺在爱你

就让我沉溺

或许不爱你也不需要你

我无法继续继续骗我自己

必须要放弃要放弃了你

你在我心底希望他比我爱你

还是你的歌 still your song...

♥♥♥

-end-

09-09-09 my bday and also my engagement day.

2009-09-10T22:54:00.008+08:00

the bridegroom.

the bride.

Us, o9-o9-o9

us again.

in the hall, before the ceremony starts.

reading the law of marriage of Malaysia.

my dad signing a document due to i'm not 21 yet.

"yes, i do."

him signing the wedding certificate.

me signing the wedding certificate.

his mom being his witness signing the certificate.

my dad being my witness signing the certificate.

him wearing my ring for me.

me wearing his ring for him.

giving me the flower.

him receiving the certificate. (look at his face. no eyes see?!)

me receiving the certificate. (different from him, i looked happy. -.-)

the rings. <3

had a small celebrtion of my bday at home.

from now onwards

Lee Hon Keat & Teoh Ai Jia

are legally husband and wife.

heehee.

being forever attached to a person isn't a sad thing.

was very touched at that moment

when the wedding registrar announced

"You are now legally husband and wife under the law of marriage of Malaysia."

o9-o9-o9

a once-in-a-lifetime

very memorable day for me.

my 19th bday and also the day

i'm a wife to the man i love.

may our love last forever.

the ring <3

2009-09-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

him & mine

mine

My Bday Dinner with my Ji-Mui's :D

2009-09-07T17:07:00.002+08:00

o5-o9-o9

Had dinner with my Ji-Mui's at Island Red Cafe.
I was the last to reach. =X paiseh
The dinner there was so-so.
But since it's free... still ok laaa.
Everyone was there even Justyne.
The last time I saw her was on her bday dinner. x.x
So it's like months ago.

Thanks for the cake and the presents. :D
I love it. Filled with cherries. :D
I will hang it up in my wardrobe on my wedding nite aite?

<3

Too Free. :D

2009-09-02T15:12:00.002+08:00

wahahaha. i am too free. and sooooo
TA-DA. new blogskin.

7 more days to my birthday.
and..
by that night, i will be engaged to him.
gosh. there goes my single life. lols.
and we will be officially legal husband and wife on
09-09-2009. :D

ohoh,
the pictures are done.
so, ji-mui's
i shall show u all soon aite? :D

lalala~
i shall go on with my very-the-free-nothing-to-do session.
buaiis.

2009-08-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

I NEED SWEETS.

changes.

2009-07-26T17:45:00.002+08:00

:D
a lot of changes has happened recently.
can't say it's good or bad,
but im getting to it. :)
Im doing pretty fine.

eventho some may question my decision,
but this is wad i've chose.
and i think it is a right one.

thanks for all the supports my family n my friends had gave me. :D
that's all for now. :D

A Brand New World.

2009-07-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

Stepping into a brand new world..
Which should be a little too early for me..
But what's done is done
Have to buck-up and go on.

All the Best to Myself. :D

幸福

2009-06-21T04:52:00.006+08:00

i am now filled with happiness. :)
you gave me all my happiness.
you made me a miracle.

after you came back sick from a trip to Thailand.
and on that night, through the phone,
you made me burst into tears.
Tears of happiness.

your words touched me, the deepest of me.
softly killing me with your words.
i cant help my tears.
but to let myself drown in your love.
although i may act as if i dont mind it,
i dont care for it,

but the only truthful thing i can tell you:

I Love You. ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

幸福

是如此的简单

简单的几句话

里面蕴藏着的感动

深深的震撼着我

爱情

是永无止境的

或许有少许的习惯

或许有少许的火花

或许有少许的泪水

或许最后的或许

依然是那么的美丽

在此

许下美丽的承诺

就像你已经在我心里最深处

种下的永远的诺言

这一生这一世

我只做你怀里的女人

被你呵护

被你疼爱

被你宠坏

我爱你。♥

long lost

2009-06-11T02:36:00.007+08:00

yes
no updates for so long
nothing to blog about.

what to say?
my life is like a lake
quiet, lifeless, dead.
not like i'm dead or "lifeless".
just that it's the same thing over and over again....
other than the outings with the girls,
and the usual things with the boyfriend.

it's the last day today
I am free. At Last.
gonna enjoy for the upcoming half year i suppose.

there has been alot going through my mind lately.
unusual, weird, funny, happy, disturbing...
what if i ....
what if he....
what if this....
what if.... ?
haha. silly me.

My Love for you grows stronger and stronger as time goes on.

It hasn't been going downhill after these years we've been together.

I love you. No matter what.

you're the one and only for me.

me ♥ you

oh, and i found out something.

this is the frist time i listen to my real real normal voice.

the recorder was on and my mom came in to talk to me.

forgot to stop the recorder.

talking to my mom, of course, my voice should be most normal & "natural".

after playing back the record,

the first thing i did was calling my dearest

-dear, i heard my real voice.

-=.= wad u trying to say?

-my voice really macam baby. T-T

-(sweat) i wanna watch tv.

-ok, byebye T-T

my voice really ini macam punya.

==" this is actually no point.

just that,

cannot deny that i'm a "baby-voice" anymore.

nehh, itu evilll joyce suka call me that T-T.

off to my animes.

nowadays, my mood changes so fast.

i may be damn emo this very second

and then suddenly become damn hyper the next second.

hormone imbalance?

haha, don't care.

as long as i'm enjoying. \(^_^)/

♥'s

e.s.c.a.p.e

2009-05-15T01:44:00.002+08:00

i wanna free myself, from wad i am facing now.
i have had enough of everything.
i will not put my worries in my way anymore.
JUST DO IT, JUST FUCK IT.
yea~

even though when i've think it through, this is not wise at all.
but, for the sake of happiness, im gonna run away.
free from "you".
yes, "you".

staying in "you" has been always a pain for me.
i love "you", and all of you in "you" but i have no choice.
i don wanna stress myself out, make myself all so tense.
...
starting to feel so lost, helplessly roaming in the dark.
really thankful to the only light that has always been by my side.
lighting my way through my escape.

to all of you reading or not reading.
this is just a piece of crap, for wad i am feeling rite now.
and wad i will do not long later.
...
escape, is a better way.
goodbye.

no more

2009-05-04T16:47:00.001+08:00

i dont know since when
driving became an "ugh..." to me

driving alone is good
but when someone who loves to scold and complain sits beside
it becomes such a pain

my mind is gonna burst anytime soon
my chest is gonna explode at the same time

i even forgot about the dinner tonight
i need a break
i wanna watch some anime now
but i have not any chance to buy them

ahhh
die die die

i am not gonna drive anyone anywhere anymore
except for myself & those who would not scream/yell/scold/nag when im driving

over n out.
nid to go prepare soon.

damn i miss you
momo n i need to see you dear :(

2009-04-26T17:40:00.003+08:00

TAGGED by Joyce BF

001. Real Name: Teoh Ai Jia
002. Nickname(s): jiajia, jia, girl, loveplus -.-, cherries
003. Age: 18++
004. Horoscope: Virgo
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Rainbow Kids Kindergarden, Tadika Ching Ying
007. Middle School: SJK (C) Chen Moh
008. High School: SMK ASSUNTA
009. College School: EU Institute
010. Hair colour: Dark Brown
011. Long or Short: Long
012. Loud or Quiet: erm, quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans: I look ugly in Jeans. -.-
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health Freak: I eat what I wanna eat, I drink what I wanna drink, healthy? =S
016. Drink or Smoke: Never
017. Do you have a crush on someone: In a relationship
018. Eat or Drink: Eat
019. Piercings: Ears
020. Tattoos: nopes
021. Social or Anti-Social: errrr, half half? depends
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: erm, 13 or 14
024. First relationship: 14
025. First Best Friend: Low Xin Yi
026. First Award: dunno wad sports in Kindergarden. lols
027. First Kiss: Loooong ago
028. First Pet: erm, small fishes? all went to heaven not long later. =x
029. First Big Vacation: China, Bei Jing.
030. First Love at first sight: errrrr, no.
031. First Big Birthday: 1 year old
032. First Surgery: nopes
033. First sport you joined: O.O kindergarden sports. xD
034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple juice
035. Rock or Rap: Rap
036. Country or Screamo: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys??
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither of them.
039. Night or Day: Night
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
041. TV or Internet: Internet
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: Hug. <33
044. Iguana or turtle: Iguana, its cool. turtle ish dumb ._.
045. Spider or bee: Bee
046. Fall or spring: All four seasons. malaysia weather sucks =S
047. Limewire or iTunes : iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: am not a ball person. o.o lols
049. Eating: nothing.
050. Drinking: Pepsi Twist ♥
051. Excitement level: Too hot. all excitement burnt. fack the weather
052. I'm about to: Go crazy, cos im sweating like a chicken in the oven.wtf
053. Listening to: The fan's sound. =="
054. Plan for today: play, eat, take care of my erzi. n hope to sleep earlier.
055. Waiting for: nothing
056. Energy Level: 65%
057. Thinking of someone: yes
058. Want kids?: A baby boy n a baby girl. preferably one shot done. LOL
059. Want to get married?: yea, to him. HAHA
060. When?: 25-28. woah Im all planned. HAHA
061. How many kids do you want: 2, most I can accept is 3
062. Any name on the mind: name ? MoMo
063. What do you want to do: I wanna learn Japanese, I wanna go to Japan
065. Mellow future or wild: erm, mellow....? wild like? tarzan? live in jungle?
066. Something you would never try: Smoking & Drugs.
067. When do you want to die: When all my dreams fulfilled.
068. Lips or Eyes: eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Romantic
070. Shorter or Taller?: Not too tall, Not too short.
071. Protective or Caring?: Protective. I need to be protected. LOL, but not an EGO
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: erm, it doesnt really matters.
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Sensitive / Observant.
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship.
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Troublemaker
077. Muscular or normal: Normal.
078. Kissed a stranger: No
079. Broken a bone: No
080. Lost glasses or contacts: nopes
081. Ran away from home: yeaaaa, onceeee
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: a fake sword. to defend myself frm my bro's mercyless hits. T-T he's a kid. x.x
083. Killed somebody: no -.-
084. Broken some one's heart: yeaaa.
085. Had your heart broken: YEAAAA.
086. Been arrested: noooo
087. Cried when someone died: yea, grandparents
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: nopes
089. Yourself: I love myself. o.o
090. Miracles: never was once on me.
091. Love at first sigh: nopes
092. Heaven: is white, soft, cloudy.
093. Santa Claus: = presents
094. Tooth Fairy: erm, nvr know abt it when im a kid.
095. Kiss in the first date: dont remind me about tht, cos its hilarious. and damn yong sui wtf.
096. Angels: Tenshi-san. Tsubasa. (angels, wings)
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : There isn't ONE second i don't wanna be with him. =x
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : now? NO.
099. Do you believe in God? : hmmm... There are gods but, I am not a follower for any of them, nt yet.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

10ppl? lets see if I can get tht much.

1. siokyean
2. meiteng
3. jadelee
4. yuetching

sadly, thats all. =S
off to my erzi. xD
Have A Nice Day.
And fack the cipet weather. zzz

My Er Zi ; 私の息子

2009-04-22T23:19:00.009+08:00

This post is all about my er zi.

Yes, u did not see wrong, that's my er zi.

Isn't he the most aborable thing on earth? D:

Makes me wanna bite him everytime. ):

My er zi,

a 2 months old

very fluffy

very cute

very adorable

very naughty

very playful

very well-behaved

very loveable

Shih Tzu.

Named him MoMo.

Not the "毛毛" in cantonese.

Not the "摸摸" in mandarin.

I named him as MoMo because

MoMo "もも/桃" means peach in Japanese.

I love peach.
And he sorta look like a peach...? lol.

All thanks to MoMo's daddy,

for buying him for me. =x

ngek ngek, I love You.

Bought him for a week ady.

And never was one second he's out of my mind.

I worry so much for him.

He is just a baby which makes him looks so fragile.

Today

Is his bath day.

It's already been a week since he bath.

Went to his daddy's place to bath him.

He was so afraid of the water,

so kelian when his inside the bathroom. T-T

He keep wanna run out of the bathroom

and was shivering so badly.

AND

when he's wet.

He's like HALF the size he is

when he is all dry n fluffy.

So skinny and so small. ):

my heart was aching when he keep crying for help.

But he must take his bath so no choice,

have to harden my heart. ):

The worse thing is the drying part.

He was so afraid of the hair-dryer.

Keep barking at the hair-dryer.

Keep wanna runaway.

Two humans holding down a puppy just to dry it. lol
Both of us were sweating after we dry MoMo.

Anyways,

MoMo is now one important part of me.

hehe

love him much ^^

Pictures of MoMo

a brand new blog.

2009-04-22T01:45:00.001+08:00

its late at night, and im just done with the new layout,
so a new post will be post up shortly, maybe tommorow. ^^
i'm off to bed now.
Oyasuminasai, minna-san.

to Joyce : you're happy now huh? see ya soon.

p/s : about this new layout.you should try refreshing a few times if it feels weird. it is actually a few boards and if the boards did not came out, try refreshing the page so tht u can have a better view of my blog. ^^ hehe. ja-ne.